Why did I start going to a 12 step group? Actually I never would have even thought to look for a group. I didn't know they existed. My husband went to a 12 step group for addicts and he brought home the information for me and suggested that I go. I'm so glad he did.
It took me a couple of weeks to get up the nerve to go. I was scared to death. I had thought I would always be alone in my struggle of living with a porn addict. I wasn't going to tell anyone of my husbands addiction. I didn't want to be judged I guess. I was hurting so much that I didn't think anything or anyone would be able to help or that nobody would be able to relate. Now I realize how silly I was. Everyone there, was there because their husband had an addiction too.
It was good to finally have a safe place to go. A place where others knew somewhat of the struggles I was facing. Also, most importantly, to have a program that truly is inspired of God. The 12 steps are basically, breaking the atonement down to manageable size pieces in order to apply it to my life. I credit it for saving my life, or I guess really giving me a new, improved life. Before I really started working the steps, I was tired of living. It was too hard. I didn't see any point any more. But I was so wrong.
I encourage every woman that is living with a pornography addict to find a group in your area. I needed to know I wasn't alone. I needed these steps to help bring balance, peace and normalcy into my life. Hopefully it will help you too.
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