This goes nicely with the 7th C of Emotional and Spiritual Healing.
7. I can learn to let go of my negative emotions and efforts to control, rescue or shame so that I will quit harming myself and others around me through destructive thoughts, feelings and behaviors.I have to say this has been one of the hardest ones for me to work on. My negative emotions, thoughts have been my constant companion for as long as I can remember. I have always had a hard time thinking good about myself. My Mom always was down on herself and my Dad. So negative thinking is one of my earliest memories. Which scares me. Are my kids just going to remember me for being negative? I hope not. Well at least I have a chance with the youngest.
This morning I was reading in "Codependents' Guide to the Twelve Steps" by Melody Beattie and she quoted one lady: "I want people to be like me, so I can feel safer, acknowledged, and affirmed. To me, recovery is about feeling safe with myself." That hit me. Was that why I had wanted my kids to be like me? To feel validated? To feel safe? The subconscious can do things we aren't aware of. I've been working on this for a while. But I have to really work at it and remind myself all the time. Let go and let God.
Love Dare Day 13--Love Fights Fair
Talk with your spouse about establishing healthy rules of engagement. If your mate is not ready for this, then write out your own personal rules to "Fight" by. Resolve to abide by them when the next disagreement occurs.
I wrote my rules, because I intend to go by them in addition to any if any, we establish as a couple. So I'll share.
- I will not yell.
- I will listen to try to understand what he is really saying. Ask questions to clarify.
- I will make sure I'm not working on pride. Is my opinion necessary for me to attain my spiritual goals? is is worth the "fight?"
- I will take a time out if I don't feel emotionally safe. Then I will do what I need to feel emotionally strong then go back and address the issue. I will make sure he understands I need a time out and will set a time to come back.
I actually have been doing these things the past few months and it has made things much nicer. But now I've written it down so I can see what I am doing.
Yesterdays dare didn't get to test it. Didn't really see my husband all day. So no disagreement. I will say he came home fixed dinner brought it up to our room at 11:58pm so he wouldn't have to sleep on the couch. That's progress of sorts.
Have a great day!
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