I'm a little sad. My husband has chosen to do his "part time job" on the night he goes to LifeStar. So no LifeStar this month. He said he is putting his recovery on the back burner while he "figures out" what he thinks of our relationship and what he should do. Okay, I translate that as meaning he doesn't care about his addiction right now. He can use it as an excuse to view. Who knows, this leads me to C number 5.
5. I can come to recognize that the recovery process of those in addiction is their choice and responsibility.
Yes it's their choice and responsibility, but I sure wish I could move it alone. See the co-dependent side of me coming out. I will just love him anyway. Learn what I can and pray. Yesterday, I was feeling lonely, unloved and vulnerable. I went to the store to get the stuff I was giving my husband for yesterdays dare. I was in a lone line to check out and I guy came over from another department and said he would check me out. I have been to this store a lot and I have never seen this happen. So anyway on the way home I felt this peace settle over me and I felt loved. This was a tender mercy from God reminding me that he is aware of me and what I am going through. I needed that at that time. God is Great!
Found an interesting article about how harmful pornography is and another website I'll add to my list.
http://www.cwfa.org/content.asp?id=18701
Have a great day!
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